Dear Vincent

To my dear son: Vincent

I am so frustrated with you! I just don't understand how you can be so cruel as to just forget about me now that you've left home!

Believe me, I understand that you don't miss me the same way I miss you and it's o.k. with me.  I believe God designed us that way, to make it easier for us to leave home and start our own lives.  If you were to feel the pain the way I do, you'd never leave home.  I am so proud of you, for what you're doing up there.  For how hard you're working!

I used to worry that you would turn out like your step-father: Lazy and without ambition.  But, it looks like all my worries were for naught.  You come from a long line of hard-working men:

Grandpa John, Grandpa Walt were both Geniuses in their own right.  Even your Uncle Scott has always worked very hard.  But, I do remember that at first he partied alot and didn't work, but once he got his first job, he worked very hard and would still be working if he hadn't been stricken with his disabilities.

Anyhow: what it all boils down to is that I understand you are busy, you're trying to get your life in order and that's O.K.!  What I don't understand is why you can't find a little niche of room for your Mother?

You rarely even answer my texts, let alone meet me online in; Facebook, Windows Live Messenger or even e-mail.  I'm not asking for you to drop everything and pay attention to me every day but jeez, once in a while would be nice!

No matter where you go or what you do in life, I'll always be your Mother, like it or not!  Don't forget me, honey, Please?

You're my life, my heart and my soul and no matter what, you'll always be a part of me!

I love you with every part of my being!

Mom

The Four Agreements

My dear son, Vincent:  As you know I've been writing Diaries to you since the day I found out I was expecting you, over 21 years ago now.  I thought it might be nice to put down all those things I wrote down and other thoughts and information that may help you in your life journey. I've had a very adventurous life, not in the way most people think of adventure.  I've traveled within the country a little, but mostly it's just my experiences I consider adventures.  Life is an adventure, and some have more than others!  I'm going to start with an excerpt from a book by: Don Miguel Ruiz, my Counselor gave this to me and I am hooked, these are definitely words to live by:

THE FOUR AGREEMENTS

BE IMPECCABLE WITH YOUR WORD

~Speak with integrity.  Say only what you mean.

~Avoid using the word to speak against yourself 

or to gossip about others.  Use the power of your

word in the direction of truth and love.

DON'T TAKE ANYTHING PERSONALLY 

~Nothing others do is because of you.  What

others say and do is a projection of their own

reality, their own dream.  When you are immune

to the opinions and actions of others, you wont

be the victim of needless suffering.

DON'T MAKE ASSUMPTIONS 

~Find the courage to ask questions and to express

what you really want.  

~Communicate with others as clearly as you can

to avoid misunderstandings, sadness, and drama.

With just this one agreement, you can completely

transform your life.

ALWAYS DO YOUR BEST 

~Your best is going to change from moment to

moment;  it will be different when you are healthy

as opposed to sick.  Under any circumstance,

simply do your best, and you will avoid self-

judgment, self-abuse, and regret. 

What I find exceptionally ironic about this, and I'm sure you heard it too:

Some of those things, I've said to you and some you've said to me!  You've always

been such an intelligent and wise young man and you've taught me alot.  I just pray I've taught you some too!

I will attempt to help you along your individual road, honey and pray some of it will be helpful to you on that journey! 

All my Love Forever,

Mom

To be continued.....